Along this journey there are certain words that I try really hard not to speak out loud even though they torment my brain. Part of me thinks that if I use them I might jinx the whole situation and then be the reason it comes true. As I type that out I realize just how ridiculous that sounds, as if I have that power. But, it's true. Relapse is one of them. I especially don't ever talk about that around Cooper. I don't want his little spirit to stress anymore than it alrea

That's it, we can't ever go back to Disney or Universal again! After experiencing a week like that it just would never quite live up to this trip! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Cooper's Make-A-Wish trip was everything we hoped for and so much more. He truly felt like a VIP, David and I successfully checked out from the rest of the world (as much as possible that is), and remarkably the kids all got along super well and just had FUN! The weather was quite cool for it being Florida, which actua

I can't lie, I kinda love that my updates aren't as frequent as they use to be 🥰 Life has been quite sweet lately and I've been soaking it in! We've gotten to watch Bria and Cooper play a TON of basketball. I'll take that over being at Children's hospital 3x a week any day! Coop's basketball team won the championship for his competitive league this past weekend! Cancer has completely shifted my perspective on most things in life. Sometimes I wonder why we spend SO much t

My friends, Cooper's scans came back ALL CLEAR!!! I don't know if you felt it but I just took a DEEP BREATH . Thank you for praying for him and for those of you who have checked in on him 🧡 Gahhhh, my heart! This one was a harder one for me for some reason. 12 weeks until his next surgery and another whole set of tests! I know you have all heard about the organization "Make-A-Wish". I mean how could anyone not LOVE what they do for kids who are facing such ugly health

We made it through 2025! There are many moments I still have a hard time believing this is all real but here we go! The start of year 2. New year, new chapter, same story. Have you ever read the book the body keeps the score? Or heard how our bodies remember trauma even if our conscious brains aren't thinking about it? I've been off for the past month and I know why. I am reliving all of the beginning days and weeks of Cooper's diagnosis (even when I try to ignore it).

Saturday was Cooper's 1 year "cancerversary" This is my 6th attempt at writing this blog. This milestone feels important. I want to do it justice and like much of the rest of this journey there are so many layers to what I would want to say, so many things I want to remember and what I want Cooper to know one day. I've written a letter to the Brittany who just found out her baby boy has cancer. I've written in detail about the events that unfolded Friday, December 13th,

Cooper Health Update: WE GOT CLEAR RESULTS! Hallelujah! Thank you Jesus! When I got those, I physically could feel my chest release. One step at a time, we will rejoice the wins when we can! The week of steroids continued to live up to our previous experiences. Coop gets really tired, blood sugars are a challenge and the "roid rage" is a real thing. Right before I gave him his first dose of steroids he looked at me and said, "Wait mom, I want to do something before I st

Oh what joy we had soaking up getting to celebrate our now TEN year old! Cooper's 9th year of life was a hard one. I wanted to say "SEE YA!" and turn the chapter hoping year 10 will be kinder and maybe forget some of the pain of year 9. However, I can't help but be so damn proud of that 9 year old boy. The things he endured, accomplished and pushed through this year has molded him into such a strong, courageous and wise boy. I am PROUD of that 9 year old and I don't want

To our prayer warriors... gosh I know you are ON it and I am SO grateful! I'm not sure if you ever feel like sometimes you keep praying for the same thing over and over and wonder... "God, where are you?" "God, are you even doing anything?" "God, how long do I have to pray about the same thing over and over?" "God, do my prayers actually matter?" I'll admit, I have these conversations with God quite a bit. God typically doesn't move as fast as I want him to. I want things